Wednesday, November 30, 2011

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Monday, November 28, 2011

Fall on us Lord...

I am always happy when I am singing songs to the Lord. Singing songs of praise and worship always make me feel secured and loved by God our Father. Even in my most painful moments, songs of praise and worship always gets me back on my feet. It brings me back to the reality of a life though full of trials, and is not a bed of roses, It still is full of love and full of hopes... My recent discovery is another song by Hillsong titled Fall. The lyrics is as follows:

I love to worship You, my God
I love to worship You, my Lord
And see Your Spirit fall in power
Your love unfolding
Gifts from heaven

I love to worship You, my God
I love to worship You, my Lord
And feel Your precious
Breath of heaven
Your all consuming love

Holy Spirit come in power
Change my heart
I want to live for You, my God
Let Your Spirit come in power
Change my life
That I may live for You my Lord
Fall on us Lord

So I yearn for You
Long to see You move
Lord, I lift my hands before my King and pray

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Was Broken, But I am more beautiful now...

Yes, I have been broken. Pain got me, Hurts disturbed my mind, being brokenhearted made me a different person for a time... I was almost self destructing. 

I stressed my self so my physical body would give in and give up - as my spirit has. Or so I thought. Thank God he saved me. His grace saved me a couple of times and whenever I cry, I no longer cry for the heartaches and for the deceit. I am slowly crying in giving thanks to the Lord - because though I do not deserve any of the good things, He still wanted me to follow his path and not to destroy myself. 

In doing this, I realized I am not only destroying myself, I am also destroying my world. A world that included friends, family, and people who still needs me. I should not let one person destroy this whole world where other worlds rely on. 

Going through heartbreaking experiences like being cheated on, being deceived, losing a loved one, losing a friend, being lied at, losing a job, etc.. is like being broken into pieces. We just have to pick ourselves piece by piece; who says broken things can't be mended? Of course it can be! And so do we... 

"When the Japanese mend broken objects they aggrandize the damage by filling the cracks with gold, because they believe that when something's suffered damage and has a history it becomes more beautiful."  - Barbara Bloom

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Today is the day!

I woke up a bit lonely today. Some thoughts are troubling my mind. It got me to think too while I walk on my way to the office early this morning. It was a perfect day to walk, the sun is not shining so brightly, the road is dry and but the surrounding is not hot.

After all that has happened, Why is he still lying to me? I think this really is enough.Noh? I should not be punishing myself... yes he did me wrong. But for me to allow him to keep doing it to me is my fault.

I thought this morning, When will i be happy? When will I meet someone who could make me feel I am a princess? When will I see that man who will promise me everything I hoped for and work on it everyday? When will that day arrive when someone would tell me I am is all he wants to be with for the rest of his life? When will that someone come? That someone who would never ever lie to me, that someone who would never break my heart like this? That someone who would never hurt me?

I prayed to God to hear me, to come quickly and bring him to me, And the air whispered. Today is the day!So I thought everyday will be the day! I will be positive, I will always claim it to be mine and received.

When I do this, I know I will always have high hopes - I deserve no less. and yes that hope will make me happy, positive and looking forward to what the day will give me.

Who knows?!

Sunday, November 20, 2011

God has his own way... Let him do it for you

I again have thought about what was done to me; By the very person i trusted. The person who says he loves me. The person i thought was God's gift to me. But Never did it came to my mind that this person who I gave everything I could is capable of betraying me. He betrayed me, and he hurt me. We all have choices, and he choice that path that would lead to my heart being torn into pieces.
Sometimes even when you do not want to remember, it will come to your mind, uninvited. It comes to you, like a thief - stealing your peace of mind... I thought I have already forgiven him, I thought I can totally forget this whole thing happening. But every time it crosses my mind... all the lies and heavy hearts he's caused me I would just have no choice but to cry and just not stop crying.

I thought of revenge. I'd give him a chance, so I can make him feel the same pain, the pain of being neglected, and rejected, and fooled, and lied at. That pain that no other pain can equal in this world... I thought this would make my hurts go away. I just could not do it; I am not the kind of person who would want to cause someone this pain. I am always better than the things happening around me, even if these things are out there to destroy me.
God is my helping hand, he saves me every time; He promised me that he will take care of it for me. And I am assured that he will. After all, God has gotten me this far... why wouldn't he help me further?

In time all of these would go away. In time i know I would be able to think about this whole thing and not cry one bit. Just not now. Not today.

Romans 12:19
Dear friends, never take revenge. Leave that to the righteous anger of God. For the Scriptures say, "I will take revenge; I will pay them back," says the LORD.

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Im tying a knot at the end of my rope...

Its been really tough the last few months of my life (August-Sept-Oct-Nov). I have been faced with probably one of the most mind-blowing trial a woman could ever face. No one can be prepared for this, I know because even if I always thought i know what i would do if it happens to me - its just not the same when it hits you.

Ever since the day, I have cried endlessly, most of the time more than once a day. I wanted answers, I wanted to know what's wrong with me, or where did i go wrong in the things I did. I never knew that this kind of pain existed - the kind of pain that consumes your being, it weakens your spirit. It makes you wonder if God saw it and tried to prevent it for you.

Maybe the person who caused me all these will never understand what I am going through. I just hope that he would somehow admit and be true to himself that he has caused someone so much pain and ask for Forgiveness if not to me, to God.

I have not told this to friends, not much. Only a few knew of the trouble that I was going through. And they don't even know the details, the very details that shattered my heart into millions of pieces. They saw how strong I am and thought I am almost over this... Not quite, Not yet. I only appear strong but inside i am broken. It always seemed like its ready to stop beating. Everyday I feel I hope today is the end.

Everyday, I pray. I have never prayed so much in my life, until this hits me. Whenever loneliness would struck me, I would close my eyes and pray that he embraces me and cover me... protect me from all the unpleasant thoughts. I have asked God to give me the strength to move on, give me the right mind to accept these, give me a better heart to forgive.

But God gave me more than I need. He gave me realizations. He showed me that if could just hold on a little bit more, I could and I would be able to see that he's prepared something better for me.

"I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us." Romans 8:18

I have come to the end of my rope... I need to just tie a knot and hang in there a little bit more. I will never lose hope. Nothing is permanent in this world, even pain and sufferings will go, right?